keeping the momentum going
My boyfriend gifted me the recently-viral task light from Ikea, which should theoretically make it easier for me to photograph and video my tabletop content for YouTube. I set it up yesterday and was impressed by how well it illuminated (otherwise aggravatingly small) seed beads. His house is adorable/clean but the interior walls are navy blue (maybe indigo?) which absorbs sunlight and makes it difficult to film indoors. Back at home, my office is very bright (almost blindingly so during certain hours) because it's south facing and has white walls so I've never had to worry tooooo much about that.
After taking care of the lighting, I thought about excuses I make to explain why I'm not making more videos. I've spent (and frankly, wasted) a lot of time on worrying about other people and their problems. Partly because of how I was raised and partly as a distraction from doing my own thing.
This isn't a mindblowing revelation but something that can only be learned through direct, firsthand experience: the most dramatic people are the ones doing the least. They're bored and their mind desperately clings to the entertainment of watching and talking about other people (often critically). Older people obsess over their friends' health issues, younger people their friends' dating history, careers, creative projects, etc. I suppose it's because we're all trying to check ourselves and compare "progress," but it gets out of hand when that's all one does.
That being said, if humans didn't enjoy thinking about and watching other people, we wouldn't have YouTube, movies, TV, books, radio, stories in general. We wouldn't have community or love or "relatable experiences." I can't criticize anything without concluding "everything in moderation" or some such thing. This post is essentially a longwinded way of saying, no, I don't care about Summer House, an American reality television series that premiered on January 8, 2017 on Bravo.